I've been dealing with the fallout from two incidents with my family over the past few weeks. I'm not comfortable saying more than that at the moment. But I can say that they have caused me a great deal of pain and heartache - some of the worst of my life.
I'm currently weighing my options regarding how I move forward. And I *will* be moving forward. I will NOT allow their actions - overt and otherwise - stop me. Enough said for now.
I want to conclude by thanking several people who have gone above and beyond to help me.
My colleague S has been there when I simply needed to not be alone. Thank you for being there, hon.
My therapist, M, has twice taken time out of her busy schedule to talk to me on short notice. Her compassion and insight have been invaluable. I will never be able to repay the debt I owe you.
My friend F, who has known me almost literally my entire life, spent an entire afternoon today listening quietly but intently as only he can.
I can sum up F as a friend by telling you the question he asked as our conversation drew to a close: "What can I do to help you, Cass? Anything I can do, I will." That is a true friend.
Finally, and most of all, thank you to my dear friend Alice. The last six months have been some of the most difficult of my life, and at a time when I had been hurt terribly by someone I loved deeply (and still do, in spite of everything), you have been there for me. Thank you, hon. xoxoxo
Hoping to write more soon. In the meantime, please keep the 50 innocent people murdered by a hateful thug in your thoughts. We live in dark, dark times. The only option, in the words of the great Bruce Cockburn, is to "kick at the darkness 'til it bleeds daylight." Amen.